i have always tried to tell myself not to give a damn and fucking care about them. about everything.
i wanna tell myself, wht does it matter even if you are being isolated.
wht does it matter if you are being gossiped abt by others.
wht does it matter if there's a huge number of ppl behing left right front of you laughing at you and about you.
LAU QIUYU, IT DOESNT FUCKING MATTER.
but i cant.
i cant not care abt wht others say abt me.
i care too much abt other's opinions of me.
WHY DO I FUCKING CARE.
caring abt such things makes me paranoid
makes me worried
makes me stressed every moment
makes me insecure
makes me emo.
there's nothing to gain.
NOTHING AT ALL.
i should stop caring.
even if there are miliions of ppl talking bad abt me, there's nth i can do.
i dont see the need for me to change myself to fit other's preferences.
i'm not a robot.
i cant be programmed to be what you expect me to be.
i am who i am.
if u can accept me, so be it.
if u can't, then there's nth i can do.
I DONT FUCKING CARE!
or rather, i shouldnt give a fucking damn.
i'm so going to die early if this continues.
there's nth i can do anyway.
i shouldnt lose myself just so i wont be a loner.
there's no need to.
what's the most impt is what's inside.
THIS FUCKING SUCKS.
carolanne's right, vulgarities are a good way of expressing ur emotions.
carolanne rocks.
i love her.
she's like my aunt agony, my pillar of strength and support.
she rocks!:D
carolanne, if ur reading this, i just wanna say thank you for being such wonderful friend and emo kids mate.
and even if the whole FUCKING world is against you, i'll always believe you.
love you forever <33333
